Day Two - First Failure =(

I'm must confess...
I had my first failures already. I'm kinda ashamed of myself. So much for will power.


I had a smoke right after I woke up and didn't go for a walk. BUT I did wait an hour before I had another one, BUT I had it with a coffee. Waiting that hour was way harder then I thought it would be. I guess I do have some will power. Now I'm counting the minutes until I can have another one. Tick tock, tick tock....


So far it's 11 am and I've been up since 8 and only had 3 smokes. That may sound like a lot to some of you...but for me...I would have normally had 3 by 9am. 


I stuck to the plan the rest of the day. I guess that's something to celebrate. I can't help feeling disappointed in myself though. I will do better! I will do this!!


Work was hard. I work with teens in a home and oh boy they tested me today. Maybe not anymore then usual but it sure felt like it. I also worked with someone who smokes and it was hard to not chain smoke with her. I didn't though! So success there!! Go Me!


My name is Breezy and I'm addicted to nicotine...and this is my journey